Show some Love
Even though I have been on a diet my entire life it seems, I can’t say that I have an eating disorder. My mother is an over eater, and emotional eater, this is an eating disorder. I don’t eat my feelings, in fact if anything depression usually leads to under eating and over drinking for me. I really liked this article. I like that she wrote a letter to her body. I think I will do this…then again I thought I would post everyday, and look how that’s going!
Sunrise over Arrocito Cove, Bahias de Huatulco, MX
I am not an early riser. In fact getting up before 7:30 on a work day is sometimes just not doable…Somehow when I go to Huatulco I am wide awake at 6am, sometimes earlier, ON Vacation! Fact is I will not get a lot of photos of the sunrise in my life, so this is a keeper!
I have had a tough few days. Finding it hard to be positive. She is my best friend and confidante, so she is my message for the day…be the person your dog thinks you are!
I’m tired today! We are in the midst of a brewing storm and the wind was sucking in my shutters making an awful squeeky noise that woke me several times before I decided to close the windows…
So I slept in and came to the office late and I although I am tired, I feel pretty good about giving myself that extra hour in bed. I do have some inflammation again though, after a good pain free day yesterday, I am a little disappointed that just one night of restlessness can cause so much inflammation in my neck and shoulders. I will take extra care today to get lots of stretching in and I have a binaural beat “pain killer” queued up for an afternoon meditation.
On the menu for the day…#theplan flax cereal, super food smoothie (spinach, cucumber, kale, hemp protein, blueberries) for lunch with a little goat cheese on ryvita…dinner could be tough though, have a girlfriend in town wanting to go out for sushi…not recommended by #Lyn Genet!
Any one who watched Seinfeld would get the #runninggag of this photo. My husband loves this guy, it stood in my mother’s log cabin for many years until she divorced and sold it to us. Chief Crazy Dogs stands guard inside our front window at our new office and every day 3 or 4 people smash their foreheads on our window to check him out! This attention is an amusing irritation that drives my dog crazy…which is what this grand cigar store native is all about!
So I said I would post everyday and I feel pretty good today, to be totally honest. I haven’t managed to have my meditation break, but I have been very busy today and yet I am not all inflamed and stiff as I usually am. There really is something to “The Plan”! I took some advil nighttime yesterday and I think it really helped as well because I actually woke up today and didn’t feel 90! I really should go sit and breathe and meditate right this minute, but the lure of the television is going to get me…its almost time for the 6 o’clock news!
I suppose it will just be more on our crack smoking mayor and money grubbing senators, but it’s a routine I enjoy, the end of the day, time for a glass of wine, maybe an appetizer (celery and homemade hummus), and just flaking out till I get dinner on the go again. I will meditate later…I promise me!
I had a rough morning. I can’t say that anything happened that made it a rough morning, in fact it is a beautiful day, I woke up early and actually got up to enjoy my coffee with some online scrabble and #bttoronto and the regular morning body ache was not particularly distressing.
Then my phone rang, at 8:05, business call, and it was like someone jabbed a dagger into the back of neck, right at the base of my skull. My husband is away and I am holding the fort all alone, to say I’m stressed out would be an understatement.
Seriously, can someone please tell me why I am always in pain? Yes I have arthritis and have had it for several years now, but this pain is different. It is like every molecule that makes up my body is screaming. It sometimes starts in my back, sometimes in my hip, sometimes in my head/neck, but wherever it starts, within an hour or so it is all consuming. I practice yoga, restorative, yin yoga for the most part, it helps me relax and get to sleep but I wake up and do the pain cycle all over again, every day. It is wearing me down. I am not myself. A doctor told me to up my electrolytes and magnesium. Done that. No dif.
I just can’t accept that this may be it, the story of the rest of my life. My mother has fibromyalgia, she has accepted this diagnosis as the story of her life since her forties. I have never wanted to be like my mother in any way. I hate when people say I look like her or sound like her, I hate being compared to her at all. I don’t hate my mom, don’t get me wrong, but everyday this pain makes me think of her, feel for her and feel like her and that just makes me even more irritable!
So….I’m hoping if I post it to the blogosphere that I am going to do something about it, I may actually feel compelled to hold myself accountable! Here’s my plan from today forward.
- Follow The Plan by Lyn Genet, I did this for a couple of weeks before I went to Mexico in March, and noticed that it definitely alerted me to things that were causing inflammation in my every day (so called healthy) diet. It is truly inconvenient to have to bake my own flax cereal, but if I can have less pain, I will suck it up.
- Meditate EVERY DAY in the middle of the work day – this is so hard for me to do, even though I know how good it is for me. Why in the middle of the day? I know I can’t just go to sleep!
- Post every day about how I feel. I don’t want to send out negative thoughts so I think if I have to post that I don’t feel good, it will force me to feel better.
- Dance! Even for just 5 minutes a day. Who doesn’t feel good when they dance?
Wish me luck Universe!
My Very Own Connection to God