I saw The Wizard of Oz (the musical) here in Toronto this weekend, and it was so much fun, and so well put together…Dorothy was wonderful and she is from my hometown which makes me all the more impressed with her performance. My husband loved it too, which is great considering it was his birthday outing!
After the matinee showing we had some time for a little shopping in Kensington Market and we popped into our favourite health food store and I got a real kick out of all the supplements with “AS SEEN ON DR. OZ” emblazoned on their packaging. Just a little Life imitating Art there! How powerful is Dr. Oz to the marketer of health products!?!? He doesn’t even have to be endorsing a product, just the fact that a particular herb or super fruit is mentioned on his show to have shown some kind of benefit (usually weight loss) is enough to send us skipping like munchkins to the nearest pharmacy, health food store (or Costco) to pick up the latest and greatest. I couldn’t help myself, I picked up a bottle of Garcinia Cambogia that will likely sit in my fridge till it expires (I hate swallowing big pills of any sort) right next to the PGx and MSM and glucosamine and GNC Women’s Multi Packs…
The Scarecrow only really needed a diploma to make him smart, maybe just a few supplements per day could make me fit again, stranger things happen!
This morning I was reading a blog post titled ” Are you having a spiritual awakening?” – It was basically about how many people are seeking a higher level of spirituality and enlightenment and communicating with angels and the universe. Obviously there are gazillions of blog posts about spiritual awakenings and enlightenment across the internet and it just kind of irritated me to read this particular post, I guess because it came through in the context of this is a really remarkable thing. But really, is it?
I mean OF COURSE the masses are in some way or other seeking meaning and enlightenment outside of traditional religion. We have come so far in communication technology, and we are exposed to SO MUCH MORE than even as few as five years ago, we have a world of knowledge and insights literally at our fingertips… It’s all about what you believe is possible. But that isn’t new is it? What’s new is that we believe in so much more possibility because we witness it everyday through media.
Then I look at these stupid shows like Real Housewives of some place or another, or like Jersey Shore and the numbers of people that watch this ridiculous bastardization of “reality” and I think, holy crap if that many people believe in that kind of reality we are in a shit load of trouble!
Being brand new to blogging for just for me, I just love this Prompts for the Promptless, so many beautiful posts have come out this Episode 10 “saudade” prompt, and I am inspired! Thank you thank you thank you!
Saudade (European Portuguese: [sɐwˈðaðɨ], Brazilian Portuguese: [sawˈdadi] or [sawˈdadʒi], Galician: [sawˈðaðe]; plural saudades) is a Portuguese word that has no direct translation in English. It describes a deep emotional state of nostalgic longing for an absent something or someone that one loves. Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing will never return. A stronger form of saudade may be felt towards people and things whose whereabouts are unknown, such as a lost lover, or a family member who has gone missing.
Saudade was once described as “the love that remains” after someone is gone. Saudade is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again. It can be described as an emptiness, like someone (e.g., one’s children, parents, sibling, grandparents, friends, pets) or something (e.g., places, things one used to do in childhood, or other activities performed in the past) that should be there in a particular moment is missing, and the individual feels this absence. It brings sad and happy feelings all together, sadness for missing and happiness for having experienced the feeling.
This is my daughter, 18 years ago. She is 20 now, and away at university. I see her every couple of weeks for short visits but of course I miss her still. She is not my Saudade, the smile in this picture and so many others from this time in her life is my saudade. This kind of sheer joy for no particular reason is exclusive to young children. She doesn’t know what danger lurks outside her walls, she isn’t worried about her education or getting a good job or ever buying a home . Hell she doesn’t even care that she is sporting a really bad “homemade” haircut!
I miss seeing that in her face every day. I miss being responsible for that joy, and I pray that I will get a glimpse of it a few more times before I die!
I love Thursday, not because it means tomorrow is Friday, just because it is my night to watch tv, alone, no channel flipping. My husband and I sit in front of the tv a lot, but I can’t say we watch much together. We like to watch the news and then reruns of Big Bang Theory at 7:30 but otherwise, he usually flips between whatever sports are on and whatever may be running on CNN, HGTV, Discovery, etc. He likes Storage Wars and those types of programs that require very little commitment so he can channel surf while I play scrabble on my ipad, read, chat on facebook and pay just enough attention to give the impression that I am just happy to be sitting in the same room together.
Thursday however is my night, Grey’s Anatomy, Vampire Diaries (I know “lame”), DVR’d episodes of Corrie Street and red wine, maybe some chocolate or potato chips…it’s almost ecstasy! Best part is he leaves me alone with full control over the remote. He doesn’t even try to watch with me and that’s how I like it!
Getting married so late in my life requires some adjustment. I haven’t lived with a man in 18 years! I had my daughter 24/7 but in the last 10 years or so, she relied less and less on me and my company. My husband and I spent generally 4 of 7 nights a week together while we dated for 6 years, but I always had those 3 nights to just “be”. After a year of marriage, I still feel this weird responsibility to “be” together. I still haven’t settled in I guess. I care too much about what he wants to do, and what he wants to eat, and generally what he wants. I am not sure if that’s healthy, but it is what it is right now, and I am just happy enough to have my Thursday nights (during the season that is) to indulge in whatever I want!
Grey’s is gearin gup for a big season finale, lots of drama and conflicted emotions brewing per usual…
I really hope they aren’t going to write Bailey out…